WoRk in pRoGrEsS ^_^

Pens are my bullets; this is the only way I know how
Expressing one’s self is harder than a holy cow
I don’t do personal talks I just let things pass me by
My actions betray me for it do the opposite of my heart’s desire.

I laugh, I smile, I’m as happy as I can ever be
But don’t be deceived for silence is my greatest enemy
Silence is the reality I usually fear to face
It drowns me with misery, the reality as it taste.

I cannot be comprehended for my life is not defined
My brain and my heart surprises me as they do their own crime
My actions cannot cope up when the former agrees with the latter
It’s too overwhelming it feels like I’m in fetter.

My life is like a castle built in the highest and thickest walls
It is created with enchantments to send away who falls
So don’t try to understand me for what your eyes can see
Cause my dear believe me there’s so much more in me.

I am a work in progress, getting down my own walls
Putting up all my courage and building up my balls
The thought of loosing you, I just can’t let it be
I only have one wish from you, please don’t give up on me.

tiRZaH©

3.9.13

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Bon Voyage Miggy :(

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Our eyes is drowning with tears
Our heart is weeping in sorrow
Our longing of you is crippling
The silence without you is deafening

Its time to let go and say goodbye
Though we are not yet ready to see you die
Its better this way than hear you cry
Than see you stare and feel the pain in your eye

Bon Voyage Miggy and rest in peace
We’ll miss your cuddling and your petty tease
You are a family and will always be
So go with Him peacefully and just let things be.

tiRZaH ©

9.15.13

Hello and Goodbye!

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I’m over you and yet I cry
Tears of pain to hide I try
You seem to have found your one true love
I seem to have just accepted that your the one I love

My future holds the beauty of the unknown
The blankness of tomorrow that you couldn’t have blown
I wish to move forward to that uncertainty though
For I’m sure that it will be less painful than letting you go

Two years of pain, of tears and of cries
Two years of cluelessness, without even sweet goodbyes
And now that you have chosen to kill and let it die
ts time for me to step forward and finally say GOODBYE.

tiRZaH©

8.6.13

mOviNg fOrWaRd! ^_^

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My clock ticks backward to  the point of no return
Its trap with the memories the past had already burned
Playing with the ashes resurfacing the fire
Reliving the history reopening the scar.

The heaven have cried for a lesson not learned
Cursing tomorrow for a future not earned
Living for the past defines what lies ahead
A continuous cycle written until we’re dead.

The beauty of tomorrow is the challenge of the unknown
The excitement of the unexpected than the surprises already blown
The laughter of the future than the cries of the past
The opportunity to change and grow for a future that will last.

One step forward and everything will change
Little by little it will forever be estranged
Looking forward guided by the past
Moving onward until today becomes a blast.

tiRZaH©

7.11.13

A or B? Help!!!!!! Anyone?

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This past few months has indeed been challenging, from overwhelming to depression, from a stronghold to letting go, from a complete reliance in faith to getting rid of toxic faith, from grasping and accepting the reality to questioning every little bit of what’s happening.

I lose control of my emotions. I keep on holding back my tears for it is struggling to flow every moment that it gets. I lose the keenness to appreciate the goodness in my surroundings and only see how unfair world can be. I became hopeless for I cannot find ways to release me from this pain, from this self-pity. And worst, I am swallowed with pride that I chose to face this realm by myself. Even writing has not been an option.

I chose to hold on to God and put everything in His hands. But, unfortunately for me, time came when my impatience get a hold of me. I cried my heart out to Him questioning all my misfortunes. I grew tired of waiting and believing and started to question my faith. For almost two weeks, I refrain communicating to my only support system. I am all alone.

His kindness was indeed so remarkable, for even when I am no longer asking He still provided all my needs. He woke me up from this toxic faith, from this wrong faith that I am holding on to. He made me realized, through the help of Bo Sanchez, that all this time I am looking at faith the wrong way. I relied my life too much to faith that I myself let go of it. I did not establish any plan but instead just wait and accept what life has to offer.

He opened my eyes to the reality that life is guided by Him but is created by ourselves. He taught me that He only mandated two options: the bad and the good. Choosing one entails another multiple choices, choices which He left for us to handle. His plans in our lives are not specific. He wants us to live life in accordance to what we want in whatever way we want as long as we do it with the right purpose, which is to give glory to His name.

He taught me to be deliberate in my life. Know what you want and pray for it. Create a plan. Define your life!

With this renewed faith, He instantly provided me with overwhelming blessings (career wise). His marvellous hands now left me with two awesome options, to work with a well established foundation where I believe would help me grow not only with my career but also with other aspects of life that I want to develop including but not limited to: colleague relationship, photography, physical development, spiritual growth, the executive feel I have always wanted and various charitable experiences.  With this option, I already know where I will live and my daily routine. But in contrary would provide me the same working environment that I’ve experienced for more than four years now, same daily routine, almost same people. My life will be defined, too defined!.

On the other hand, the other option offers me a totally new environment. A firsthand experience on how the government works. A more challenging work load that is not limited only in my career expertise, a broader exposure to different aspects of business. An opportunity to specialize in the industry that I love to master, a chance to bring change within our country, a career path that is not at all defined. And this is probably where my fears are coming from, fear of not knowing what I will be facing. And since government positions are coterminous, meaning if Philippine President Noynoy Aquino has 3 years left in his term, this job opportunity is only for three years. This option is not for long term. After three years, I’ll be going through the same dilemma again.

I know for sure that both are God’s will, so I just have to choose what I want more. And the problem now is I want both equally. I want the first one for it will provide me a well balanced life and I want the second one for it will provide me a good career opportunity.

For months I have been frustrated for lack of options, and now I’m still frustrated with two awesome options. I have nothing else to do but pray for wisdom to make the right decision.

As You have revealed to me last Tuesday: “ I can do all things through Christ – Philippians 4:13”. I know for sure that whatever option I choose will be perfect for me. My only prayer now is that may Your will be done in my life. And please Lord enlighten me through your people that is around me.

So now the question still remains. A or B?? help! anyone?

“Work for a cause, NOT for applause. Live life to express, NOT to impress. Don’t strive to make your presence noticed, just make your absence felt.” – unknown

6.1.13

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NaPoWriMo # 20 – Dream Big

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I want to be a doctor and heal those who are sick
I want to be an astronaut and give the moon a kick
I want to be a teacher and teach the innocent minds
I want to be the president who leads the country and binds

I want to be so many things my mind can easily grasp
Those that seem impossible for my future to entrust
For dreaming is free of charge and no one can criticize
So the bigger the better, the higher you will rise

The higher you aim, the greater the prize
The harder you work, the better the ties
Set your goals and just dream big
For your future depends on what your mind will feed.

tiRZaH©

4.22.13

NaPoWriMo # 19 – A Walk of Difference

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I walked a single step and hear the children crying
I run a hundred laps and and see the youths are starving
I  traveled a thousand miles and feel the parent’s aching
I flown to a million’s eyes and all I see is suffering.

It is blinding to look and deafening to hear
My heart is breaking and all i feel is fear
What has happened and what we will all become
If our future will be as challenging as those for some

I walk a single step and cheered up a baby crying
I run a thousand laps and gave food to those who are starving
I traveled a thousand miles and encouraged those who are hard working
I flown to a millions heart and made a difference in the way we are living.

tiRZaH©

4.22.13

NaPoWriMo # 18 –Sales Talk

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I’ve been through a thousand but I’m still trembling
I’ve heard all the questions but I’m still panicking
I have all the qualifications but I’m still doubting
Since birth I’ve known myself and yet I’m questioning

I’ll never get used to this promoting one’s self
Its as if I’m on a bargain to be sold and to be kept
My life is being judged by the contract that I signed
My worth is being valued by the offer that they raised

“You’re hired” is the magic word that means you have well lived
“You’re fired” is the buzzer beater disqualifying what you have believed
“I quit” is the reset button, rethinking what you have done
“I accept” is the pause button, admiring what you have become.

tiRZaH©

4.18.13

NaPoWriMo # 17 – Emotional Rehabilitation

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I’m not yet cleansed
I’m not yet healed
I’m not yet recovered
I’m not yet moved

I’m still waiting
I’m still searching
I’m still mending
I’m still recovering

I’m moving forward step by step
I’m living life loving myself
I’m getting there day by day
But for now I’m simply okay.

tiRZaH©

4.18.13

NaPoWriMo # 16 – Time Flies

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Time really do passes by fast
Strangers of tomorrow are our closest friends in the past
People move on and forget your existence
You move on and encounter new acquiantance

Each people you meet is a part of your journey
The length is unknown and is defined by your destiny
Friendship is not a choice it just happened unknowingly
So appreciate everyone, for he might be there indefinitely

Looking back in the past brings back memories
Positive or not, it is something to be cherished
It defines our life, do we grow or do we nurish
But it is not something to hold on to or else we’ll perish

tiRZaH©

4.17.13

NaPoWriMo # 15 – When Karma Strikes

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I’m young, I’m free, I’m wild, I’m glee
I’m youthful, I’m playful, I’m useful, I’m beautiful
I’m exploring the world beyond anyone can imagine
I’m exerting all efforts and treats my body as an engine.

My fears have come that got me trembling
The thing I only have is now fading
all of my senses can longer be felt
They have given up on me and can no longer be dealt.

Repentance comes as a last resort
When nothing can be done and we can no longer abort
So love your kingdom in any way you can
For it will get back at you in every way it can.

tiRZaH©

4.17.13